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What Are You Afraid Of?

I had my first seizure/convulsion at the age of 7. I had slept and suddenly woke up to my mouth twisted to one side and my eyes fluttering really fast. Somehow, I knew to get up from the bed and walk to where I knew my grandma would be sitting. I remember hitting her like crazy and pointing to my face. I remember hearing all hell break loose. I remember them screaming my name. I remember my mum in particular shouting for someone to bring this and bring that. I remember being carried and taken to the hospital that was only a few minutes walk from our flat. I couldn’t see anything but I was aware of everything happening around me. I remember coming to at the hospital and wondering why the heck whatever it was that happened to me happened.

 

I had more of those seizures until I was 11 years old and they happened the exact same way as my first…and I remember them all. They terrified me and I was always afraid when night time came. As I got older, the fear remained, going to bed was a nightmare especially when I was away from home. I guess that’s why I became a night owl…going to bed freaked me out and I became more productive at night time. Even well into my 20s, the fear remained.

 

One day, I had had enough and I said “no more”! I cannot and will not live like this. I prayed, I affirmed and talked about it to those close to me. Every time the thought came, I banished them mostly with scriptures and affirmations. It wasn’t easy and it didn’t stop overnight but I didn’t give up, and although I’m still a night owl, I don’t live with that fear anymore.

 

Fear is a natural response to physical danger, but it can very easily be self-created

 

Fear is a natural response to physical danger, but it can very easily be self-created. It could be the fear of: failure, the future, losing those we love, dying, etc. Whatever that self-created fear is, the key to overcoming it is recognising what it is when it kicks in and facing it head-on. Tackle it physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally. Don’t suffer in silence, talk about it to your loved ones or someone you trust. It may take a while but you will eventually overcome it, so keep on keeping on! You are strong, resilient, powerful and brave, and can overcome any obstacle.

 

Have you struggled with self-created/irrational fear? How did you/have you handled it?

 

Blessings,
March 30, 2018

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Yarn: Tennyson by @pigment.and.ply.
Pattern: TBC.
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Pattern: Spring Breeze Crochet Cocoon Cardi.
Skill level: Intermediate beginner.
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Hey, my friends! I’m looking for testers for my Silhouette Peplum Dress.
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The dress is worked in the round, until you divide at the underarms and knit flat, and is pretty much in stockinette stitches apart from the peplum, which uses an open lace stitch pattern. Shaping has been done such that the dress will fit any body shape/form. 
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If you’re interested in testing, please go to the link in my bio for the application form. Application closes Monday 18 March and notifications will be sent out Wednesday 20 March. Feel free to DM me if you have any questions. Thanks muchly in advance!⠀
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- Skill level: Intermediate beginner ready to take on a garment challenge 🙌🏽.⠀⠀⠀
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